How Was The Outcome?
It
wasn't good. A good outcome would have been for Kristin to have been
cleansed of all demons, for all of her
alters to have integrated, and for
us to have married. Another good but a more difficult outcome for me would have
been for Kristin to have been cleansed of all demons, for all of her alters to
have integrated, and for me to have walked her down the aisle into the arms
of a Christian groom her age.
As it turned out, while dozens of alters have integrated, hundreds or more demons have been cast out, and she now knows what her Satanist father did to her and that she is suffering from dissociative identity disorder and borderline personality disorder, she still has demons in her, still suffers from dissociative identity disorder and borderline personality disorder, is less functional, and has depleted the will to heal that she had had in the beginning.
On my end, this journey took seven years of my life, throttled my evangelism work for about five years, estranged me from my family and friends, and I continue to have symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder. Also, I went from loving to talk to people, including strangers, to balling up inward and hardly speaking to anyone for a couple of years after Kristin, as human beings, especially women, were seen as sources of pain. I am better now but remain guarded, especially towards women.